HURTXXXX.

3:53 PM | 0

warning. this post is writen by its owner when she was really2 hurt becoz of that stuuuuupyd sumone.

Pa sala sa ma ko r???? hah??? cua ko ckp, pa yg sa bwt sala sampai ko wt gney ma sa???? bha, yala. ko buatla cam ne. memang ko maw kc mati sa ow kan? ko mmg budu ow. ko taw ka pa sa rsa ko bwat sa mcm ney? aduii. sakittttttt sangat wa!!! lebih sakit lagi taw dari sebelum ni. apa salah sa???? apa dusa sa ma ko hah??? xial ohh. xiallllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damnnnN!!!!!! ko mmg la.. buduhh! cam angin jak kali sa ne ma ko kn?cm teda2 jak kn? cm tia wujud plak sa ne bagi ko kn?? bagus sa mati ja kn? bea tia pya lae ko pduli2 sa pas ne. ko enjoy la. ko wat la pa jak ko suka. ko tia pena hargai pa suma yg sa bikin kan? ko nda yakin ma sa kan? bha, pa guna lae? cakap, pa gunaaa!!!! buduh!! buduhhhhhH!!!!!! sa mank rugi ow. rugi. rugi. rugi sa tlampaw syg ma ko. senang kn ko maw pijak2 sa? 2la bha klemahan sa. tlmpw BAGUS ma urang. tlmpaw maw JAGA ATY urg. ATY sa? HANCURR!! teda guna juga bha kn tlmpw bek ni? bgus lek sa jadi jaat jak. hmm. ntah la ko. skaty ko la! ko nda pduli sa, sa pn dyam2 jak la~!!!!!

ignore jak la apa yg ditaip d ats tue...depressed wa aku.. enta, cam maw gila suda aku ne..pas teriak saturg2 tadi baru rasa cam lega sket.. nanis air mata drh lae.. huhu.. smpai sakit wa mata aku nanis2 neyhh.. ilang mud aku truz ow.. maw wat kerja pn, xda mud.. adik2 aku pn, triak ja ma durang.. pduli la...

buat masa ney, only music can take me away from all my prob.. sumbat earfon, melalak saturg d bilik.. cm gila sua kn? eya mmg aku gila.. tidak dapat dinafikan lagi.. aku maw p tempat len ow.. p sumwhere else, where i dont hv to think bout all those stupidty.. tingu english pun tunggangtbalik sua.. bha, maw men emo2 sua nie aku.. aku jnji namaw nanis, nanis jua aku.. nda dpt thn wa.. sakit gila eney hati... skank e2 sak la ubat aku.. musix.. tia bkesan sua maw mnum2 ubat neyhh.. bukan aku dpt tido juak.. tmbh pening pala ada la..

fireflies - owl city. best ar lagu dya.. ada sua bha pula video paparazzi.. heh..lagu ne la tu..okey so the video ar maybe too..mature. haha. 18 above ne. pduli pa aku. aku just maw dgar lagunya jak. said : Promise i'll be kind, but i wont stop until that boy is mine...

and now that the boy is mine, should i stop? skrg aku cuma mmpu bdoa sak la, spya aku bley lalui suma nhe ngan baek.. lagu bad romance pun best arrr.. heee~~pelik2 tapi ngam ma aku.. yg sot2 ne skank.. whoooh. totally feels better after screaming my lungs out... enta la bhu.

i'll let him go, if thats what he want. malas sua aku maw kc prtahan benda ni. demm yeahhhhh!

Fine. dari kao jak bh!

8:58 AM | 0

Moning..aiyaa. cam tia kena pduli sak wa ak nhe.. cm teda2 sak wa.. trep okey sak la.. malas ak maw gadu2 sal hal kecik ja.. skaty dy la, ak ekut sak rentak dy.. bea lh.. ak pn namaw gnggu dy wa.. spm blum abis lae.. huhu.. sakit aty tue mac terasa lae ow.. cm maw matik sak ow ak kmarin.. last2, ak tido sak.. p buka lae 2 ubt batuk.. arhh.. pduli la.. yg ak igt tem tu, ak sakit aty, ak maw tdo.. pas ak tdo, suma jdi okey.. then pas ak bngun 2 bru ak rasa aman sket.. malu jga wa, kena tw nh ak nanis.. huhu.. kin malu.. sepa suh urang tu, disuru dyam2, maw jua wa kestaw.. isshhh.. kin panas weyhh.. tingu..nada mesej ni.. aiyoo.. bea lh, ak sabar jak.. sabar tu kn iman.. cehh.. bgus law alim sgt pun.. haha..

Eya wa.. ak la bha tu sala.. ak la bha tu tlmpw jelez.. emm, yala.. ak sala.. kao nda sala apa2.. suma sala ku jak wa.. dari kao jak la suma.. ak nda maw mlwn laki.. haha.. malas sua maw fite ni.. kin sakit aty sak kn..

Ak nda tw ak mw seblah pihak sepa.. kao ckp kao teda pa2 ma dy, tapi org len nmpk len wa.. e2 la kao.. ak trust ma kao, tpi pd msa yg sma ak sakit aty jua bp bestie ak sendri yg ckp gitu ma ak.. dua kali sua pkra ney jadi ow.. ary tu adik yg ckp, ary ne kaka yg ckp.. dua2 dorg, ak pling prcaya wa.. mata org len wa dear.. kao ley ckp gitu, tpi org len ckp yg bukn2 plak.. ak kenal wa kao.. dun worry, ak pcya kao nda bwt gitu jua.. cuma.. e2 la bha.. ak manusia jga.. pndai sakit hati.. ak bukan robot kn.. imposible la kalo ak nda rsa apa2 tem dgar cerita tu.. law kao pn mybe kao mrh juakn.. even ak ckp kwn pn, kao mrh jua kn..

kao ckp ak yg nda sms kao.. bha, xkn ak yg maw dluan2 phe sms.. kao llaki, kao la bh duluan.. xkan ak.. malu wa ak law maw duluan2 sms.. cm yg thegeh2 sak ne.. lae pn kao slalu bz kn.. ak mna tw bila kao free.. law ak mmg free sak ney sknk.. ak msg kao, kao bz, ak rsa cm ngacau kao sak wa.. huhu..

enta la bha kao.. ak ekut kao sak ne skrg.. sick of crying sua...

maybe its true, that i can't live without u...

tears.

10:09 PM | 0

tajuk mempunyai sedikit perkaitan ngan entry nhe.

u know, i love the pic above.

did it myself with paint and gimp. i dun have photoshop okey.

haha. actually that was the lyrics from tears - by xjapan. i really love that song. it reminds me of my bff!! and him too. and all out memories~~huhh, trep emo plak aku. neway, suka amat sama eto lagu!!

huhu. kalo aku menghayati, nanis wa aku.

sepa ar kc kenal eto lagu sama aku..ermm, c jojo lau nda silap. mulamula dea suh aku amek dari henpon c neo. fez, i dun like it. but after i repeat and repeat and repeat it, i started to luv that song. heee.

okey diz is my second post today. hmm. currently feeling..heartache. gatal hati ka tu? haha. ntah la. aku rasa pelik semacam la hati aku hari ni. rasa macam duluuu.

and a bit sad too. huhuu.

i wanna trust him but..i don't know. i simply cant. i tried to, but it's hard. aiii. napa perasaan tu datang lagi? rasa sakit hati, yang sama macam time hari tu.. huhu. read my previous post. especially on july and august. dalam dua bulan tu la, aku rasa cam maw mati jak sakit hati sgtsgt. yeahh, thats exactly what i've feel rite now.

well, lupakan sajalah. tak baik berdendam kan.

no use holding grunge. rite? esok maw modify ini skin! hahaha~
tu yang best tu. hee.

emm, dari kao sak wa. maw sms ataw tia. eya wa. ak namaw lae men felling2 nhe. bea lh, xda pa. ak namaw mkn dlm lae. i try to understand u. i try to pleased u. i try not to hurt your feelings again. i'm sorry! can u forgive me?

entahlah!!!
for u,

I'm so, so sorry. from my deepest heart.
I hope you forgive me dear.

6th Dec.

5:52 PM | 0

Last nite i watched Twilight. haha. very2 ketinggalan oh kan?

so last year bha twilight tu. orang skrg tengok new moon sua. pa boley buat, mana ada cinema di keningau. sedang dalam pembinaan, hopefully.

then jam 11 lebih, mau abis suda ni, suspen2 sua, tibatiba bleckout.

xial weyhh. jam 7 pun bleckout, jam 2 pun bleckout.. apa kena juga letrik nie? balikbalik bleckout jak.ohh. syoknya twilight etoo. kang nak cari DVD new moon la. hehe. gila sua aku ma c cullen tu. memanga ku team edward la.

Hari nie mau balik keningau suda. yay!

d keningau jarang bleckout. bagusbagus. hee. orang tu pun balik keningau gak ari nie. punya la aku panas ngan dia semalam. cam orang bodo jak bha aku menunggu depan henpon. tedateda juga mengcall nie. aiyooo.

kalo maw tidur pun, at least kestaw la bha. susa sangat ka maw sms tu? aduii. then aku try call sampai 3 kali, suma masuk voicemail jak. cehh. lastlast aku bilang, "Ah, tidur jak la kaw." peduli. memang aku hot sua tem tu bha.

tus delivered pulak mesej tu ar? ceh, xial jugak. then dia reply, "Wehh, napa nie?"

Napa nie kaw bilang? Huhh. suda kaw buat aku cam sot jak menunggu call kaw. janji kunun pas pukul 8 maw call. sampai jam 10 aku tunggu, teda juak bha. iiiiisshhhh. demm u.

Okey, aku d keningau sua skank..hehe. save di draft jak tadi.

Ada gadu2 lek sket ma dia..huhu.

sepa suh, telampau cemburu. of coz la aku cemburu kan?

kalo aku tak cemburu,ertinya tak sayannggg. kan3x? hmm. agakagak dia marah ka tu ar? haishh. tak taw la. aku memang tak dapat kontrol tadi. sua lah otak pun nenga serabut gila babey. aii. mesti dia marah tu. cam aku nie tak percaya ngan dia. bukan tak percaya, tapi.. bila dah kena kc apiapi tu, sepa tak panas, kan?

well, ntah la.hope dia okey ja.
tapi nda membalas mesej nie..huh.

bella and her daughter. cumel ohh. hee

kebosanan.

1:33 PM | 0

BOSANNNNN!

Bosan sungguh cuti ini okey. cam maw matik jak ohh. aku maw balik keningau cepat2. bosan gila bha cne.. henpon pun cam teda guna jak. bukan ada juga orang aku maw semez. bukan tiada actually. ada, tapi malas aku maw layan. tenga panas nhe skank. takut sak law aku layan, tambah aku panaz lak ma orang tuh.

Tapi law aku d keningau sua.. uhh. sama juak aku borink. sekarang memang aku excited maw main Playstation tu. tapi nanti kalau aku dah puas main, bosan gak tu. kalo nak mengadap laptop pun, bosan gak. aishhh. harap2 la dapat kuar pekan ngan dorang nanti.. huhuu. aku rindu dorang suma.

PMR result. aduii. taktaw la apa result aku nanti. peduli la. kalo tak dpt straight A pun.. takpe la. cuba lagi nanti SPM. hmm, form 4 mesti study betul2 nhe. no more playing around. hopely masuk asrama, resultaku bole naik balik. and my studies would be better.

Entahla. aku pun dah taktaw pa lae maw tulis. makin lama aku makin hilang interest maw main blog2 nie. bosan sua aku. bagus lae aku main game. huhu.

Bitterheart - Zee Avi.

Sun rays come down as seen
when they hit the ground,
Children spinning around
till they fall down down down.
I wait for you: it's been two hours now,
You're still somewhere in town,
Your dinners getting cold.
I rest my case you are always this late,
And you know how much I hate
waiting around 'round 'round,
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.

just abitt.. okey done. byebye.

Labels: my life

5th.

8:30 PM | 0

tukaa template lagikk. da bosan ngan pink kaler tuh la beb. huhue. aku ne memang jenis cepat bosan ngan sumthink oke. maybe i'll just stick with this minimal template. buat masa sekarang, malas maw pning2 kepala edit html2 tersebut. dahla line siput gila. huhh.

ohya. friendster dah berwajah baru kan? cuba la tengok. heh. main caler dah jadi hijau. dulu biru kan. tapi bagaimanapun, facebook tetap nombor satu. haha. entah la, aku rasa macam nak delete semua entry aku yang duludulu la. hmm. tapi sayang pulak. nak buka blog baru, rasa malas. entah la.

tatawww.

sekarang dah jam 10. hehh, awal jua orang tue tido r? hmm, kadg2 awal..kadg2 lambat.. bha, tido jak la. tia pya kw mau peduli ma aku. tido jak. huhh. aku tia mesej kw marah r? bila aku mesej,kw wat teda2 sak kn. bha, FINE wa. skaty kw la. malas aku ohh.

okey laa nhe template. pwas sua aty aku. malas doe maw pi search2 lae di blogskin. kin sasak utak sak. tingu la dulu klau mood aku baek. hurmm. aku mau blek Keningau waa. borink sua aku d kg. buhsannn. aiseh, kna suh tido da. k, nyteee.

IMY!!!

Hello December!

10:50 AM | 0

Naa. Bulan 12 suda. cehcehceh. cepat sungguh masa berlalu. dah setahun. fuhh, nda sedar ohh. cam baru saja masuk bulan 1. hurmm.

*heppy belated birthday to xam and cjee*

Dengar lek lagu Love Story. tahun lalu ne jugak lagu yang aku dengar tem ni. tahun lalu ada cuzens2 aku dari sarawak, taklah boring sangat. Disember 2008.

Lagu Over You pulak. cehh, teringat Disember 2007.

Dan lagu No Promises, Disember 2006.

Disember tahun ni pulak lagu apa ya?

Minat gila lagu Two Is Better Than One..hee^^

December, then January. OMFG. Januaryjanuaryjanuary. school session started!! ohhh. and i forgot. our PMR result will come out by the end of December. or so. i dun really knoe when. and then, next year 2010, we will be seniors oredy.

Heshhh. become seniors. makes me realize i grow older and older. next year i'm turning 15. haha. and i'm entering form 4. and next year, no more playing. have some serious studying to do. for SPM. Penentu masa depan. Penting tu jooo.

Babysitting my cousins. aduiii. mau test game SIMS luk. heh, adik2 aku tentu tengah main PS2 dengan enjoynya sekarang. Jelez gila ehh.

Heyhey. 24 days before Xmas!
23rd December~~~~
ada la tu.